I’ve been here for nearly a year, it just hit me again seeing how stupid it was.

If it weren’t for debt in the past, she’d be a SAHM to this day.

I actually like my job.

I just have never had a place/coworkers that actually went out of their way to tell me that they appreciate me. My wife doesn’t compliment me ever, and now I have an extreme imbalance of responsibility and tasks.

I was already doing most everyone of these things. Now, they’re just permanently mine and mine only.

Now, I have to give up even more for her inflexible schedule.

It’s the entitlement she has that is the problem.

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No, I easily clear 3x more.

It’s a part of my frustration. I put myself out there more than I should comparatively to what we make. Not from prestige, but from security.

No. But she knows how frustrated I am as well.

I can’t change the past, and progress to right a wrong is way longer than it takes to lose trust. However, I don’t know how much longer I can take not feeling like I’m worth the effort, the same effort that gave us four awesome children.

I feel a huge gaping hole in my heart each and every day, and she knows this. So, I’m going to go to my therapy that I’ve gone to off and on for 8 years, get in the best physical shape I’ve ever been in, and find a way to find contentment in a shitty environment.