got diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis a year ago, at 21 years old. combined with severe burnout from my senior design project, I realized all my prior methods of motivation were ultimately unsustainable and meaningless.

I’ve been reading so many books and they’ve honestly saved my life. zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance totally shifted my perspective on what actually matters–honorary mention here for dune: chapterhouse as well. stone butch blues made me, as a gender queer individual, feel seen in a way that I’ve never felt before. and lord valentine’s castle showed me a path out of the darkness.

slowly I’ve been piecing together the various parts of my life. the most important thing for me recently has been avoiding excessive phone time. I realized our society is severely addicted and it’s slowly killing our communities. I’ve been replacing my phone time with hobbies and crafts. I got into model making recently and I’ve been making miniatures of all of my furniture!! and I’ve been embroidering my clothes! felt lonely the other day so I added a little cardinal to my favorite shirt :) I highly recommend picking up some acrylics, brushes, and mini canvases and following a bob ross tutorial!

yes there is no inherent meaning in anything, but all that means is you get to create your own meaning and no one can tell you you’re wrong!!! stop commodifying your life and start living it!

oh just like how everyone got to test out their new weapons in the Spanish civil war

someone forgot they’re standing on the shoulders of giants

now is that kinematic or dynamic viscosity?

it’s about how many people didn’t vote. that’s literally it

that’s not the point being made

but in the long term there’s always a swing back the other way

I want to get better at deeply understanding people, which probably starts with getting better at listening

arguably setting zero to absolute zero is just as arbitrary

everyone is morally problematic depending on who you ask

I think it’s your last sentence. I’ve never actually met a completely “normal” person who was able to actually keep up with society’s outrageous productivity demands

you should try reading zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance

your loss then; I like it!

why not?

talk about carbon dating am I right

do I hear heist movie?

matlab likes to pick the smallest available spot in memory to store a list, so for loops that increase the size of a matrix it’s recommended to preallocate the space using a matrix full of zeros!