Daemon Silverstein

Digital hermit. Another cosmic wanderer.

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  • @deathbird@mander.xyz @florencia@lemmy.blahaj.zone

    Grok is not that free of guardrails.

    I say as a person who sometimes have the (bad) idea of feeding every LLMs I could possibly try, with things I create (drawings, poetry, code golfing). I don’t use LLMs to “create” things (they’re not really that capable of real creativity, despite their pseudo-stochastic nature), I use them to parse things I created, which is a very different approach. Not Grok anymore, because I have long deleted my account there, but I used to use it.

    Why do I feed my creations to LLMs, one might ask? I have my reasons: LLMs are able to connect words to other words thus giving me some unexpectedness and connections I couldn’t see on my own creation, and I’m highly aware of how it’s being used for training… but humans don’t really value my creations given the lack of real feedback across all my works, so I don’t care it’s used for training. Even though I sometimes use it, I’m still a critique of LLMs, and I’m aware of both their pros and cons (more cons than pros if we consider corp LLMs).

    So, back to the initial point: one day I did this disturbing and gory drawing (as usual for my occult-horror-gothic art), a man standing in formal attire with some details I’ll refrain from specifying here.

    ChatGPT accepted to parse it. Qwen’s QVQ accepted it as well. DeepSeek’s Janus also accepted to parse it.

    Google’s Gemini didn’t, as usual: not because of the explicit horror, but because of the presence of human face, even if drawn. It refrains from parsing anything that closely resemble faces.

    Anthropic’s Claude wasn’t involved, because I’m already aware of how “boringly puritan” it’s programmed to be, it doesn’t even accept conversations about demonolatry, it’s more niched for programming.

    But what surprised me on that day was how Grok refused to accept my drawing, and it was a middle-layer between the user and the LLM complaining about “inappropriate content”.

    Again, it was just a drawing, a fairly well-performed digital drawing with explicit horror, but a drawing nonetheless, and Grok’s API (not Grok per se) complained about that. Other disturbing drawings of mine weren’t refused at that time, just that one, I still wonder why.

    Maybe these specific guardrails (against highly-explicit horror art, deep occult themes, etc) aren’t there in paid tiers, but I doubt it. Even Grok (as in the “public-facing endpoint”) has some puritanness on it, especially against very niche themes such as mine (occult and demonolatry, explicit Lovecraftian horror, etc).







  • @mkwt@lemmy.world @Blujayooo@lemmy.world

    TIL I’m possibly partially (if not entirely) illiterate.

    Starting with the first question, “Draw a line a_round_ the number or letter of this sentence.”, which can be ELI5’d as follows:

    The main object is the number or letter of this sentence, which is the number or letter signaling the sentence, which is “1”, which is a number, so it’s the number of this sentence, “1”. This is fine.

    The action being required is to “Draw a line around” the object, so, I must draw a line.

    However, a line implies a straight line, while around implies a circle (which is round), so it must be a circle.

    However, what’s around a circle isn’t called a line, it’s a circumference. And a circumference is made of infinitesimally small segments so small that they’re essentially an arc. And an arc is a segment insofar it effectively connects two points in a cartesian space with two dimensions or more… And a segment is essentially a finite range of a line, which is infinite…

    The original question asks for a line, which is infinite. However, any physical object is finite insofar it has a limited, finite area, so a line couldn’t be drawn: what can be drawn is a segment whose length is less or equal to the largest diagonal of the said physical object, which is a rectangular paper, so drawing a line would be impossible, only segments comprising a circumference.

    However, a physically-drawn segment can’t be infinitesimal insofar the thickness of the drawing tool would exceed the infinitesimality from an infinitesimal segment. It wouldn’t be a circumference, but a polygon with many sides.

    So I must draw a polygon with enough sides to closely represent a circumference, composed by the smallest possible segments, which are finite lines.

    However, the question asks for a line, and the English preposition a implies a single unit of something… but the said something can be a set (e.g. a flock, which implies many birds)… but line isn’t a set…

    However, too many howevers.

    So, if I decide to draw a circumference centered at the object (the number 1), as in circle the number, maybe it won’t be the line originally expected.

    I could draw a box instead, which would technically be around it, and would be made of lines (four lines, to be exact). But, again, a line isn’t the same as lines, let alone four lines.

    I could draw a single line, but it wouldn’t be around.

    Maybe I could reinterpret the space. I could bend the paper and glue two opposing edges of it, so any segment would behave as a line, because the drawable space is now bent and both tips of the segment would meet seamlessly.

    But the line wouldn’t be around the object, so the paper must be bent in a way that turns it into a cone whose tip is centered on the object, so a segment would become a line effectively around the object…

    However, I got no glue.

    /jk


  • @misk@sopuli.xyz @Skavau@piefed.social

    As a sidenote, I remember that UK has an odd and ancient “law” stating something in the lines “The Crown must not be offended” (i.e. being anti-monarchy and advocating for the end of monarchy, even without any violent language/means but a pacific defense of anti-monarchy). I couldn’t find it, nor I can remember the exact phrasing, but such a “law” threatens prison time for those who “dare” to “offend” the crowniness of UK Crown. Also, I’m not sure to what extent this law is applied in practice.

    Even though I’m Brazilian (so the UK supposedly “have no power over here”, and I say it with the Gandalf’s voice), I see these international situations with some worry: there are needed laws (such as laws against noise pollution) and there are laws whose reach ends up going way too far from their “seemingly well-intentioned” puritan scope (such as the aforementioned laws).

    If countries are capable of passing draconian laws against their own citizens, don’t expect that those same countries couldn’t go further to impose these laws beyond their own lawns, especially in times of interconnectedness.

    And Fediverse platforms from everywhere around the entire globe end up being caught in the crossfire, due to that same interconnectedness.

    In the end of the day, the world is increasingly bleaker, as the history is being repeated (maxims “One thing people can learn from history books is that people can’t learn from history books”, and “history doesn’t just repeat, it rhymes”).




  • @razorcandy@discuss.tchncs.de !asklemmy@lemmy.world

    In my opinion, two very specific subjects that highly resonate with me:
    - Cryptology (as in the study of ciphers) and Steganography: a community intended for people to share puzzles, novel ciphers (Rcszqar pg s mpbra voqjdg), techniques and examples of existing/novel arts with hidden messages (e.g. the BACH motif behind some classical music), algorithms (preferably code golf), math formulas and theorems, etc.
    - Occult, Esoteric and Left-hand path spiritualities, preferably focused on personal spirituality: a community intended for people who have their own individual paths/beliefs (or are willing to build one for themselves) so they can share concepts, rituales, books/grimoires and even items among them. By LHP and esoteric, some examples are (but not limited to) Lilithism and Luciferianism, Hermeticism, Thelema, Quimbanda, Gnosticism, Wicca, Neo-Hellenism, Goëtia, Theistic Satanism, among other belief systems and religions (the latter kind, “religions”, preferably focused on building individual paths that can consider each one’s contexts and lives and worldviews, with the Masters/Leaders being the deities and entities themselves who are being revered/worshiped).


  • @Arkouda@lemmy.ca Even if I get to do something (such as I’m doing right now while trying to express something profound, aware of how I’m probably just yelling to the clouds), it doesn’t change the fact that the world behaves like a prison where all lifeforms are thrown to “make a living” (i.e. surviving and competing against other lifeforms because their own vessels offer no other option other than the biological preprogramming of “instincts”).

    Also, the “exit hatch” is so tight and spiky that one must endure utter pain while trying to squeeze through it. And things like MAID, which would allow one to conscientiously and finally choose something about their own existence, “must be allowed only for the terminally-ill” because “life” is something so, so “sacred” that people can’t even dare to think of choosing other than “living” (a.k.a. constantly trying to avoid and postpone the unavoidable by trying to fulfill the vessel’s needs while being forced to play the unskippable game of social compliance), because they “must do something fun with their time” and thinking otherwise must be inconceivable!

    And it sounds no different from how prisoners must “do something” with their prison time, be it reading a book, playing cards and small-talking with other inmates, taking the obligatory sunbath for the daily dose of Vitamin D, scratching the wall so to keep track of days, or doing the obligatory physical exercising at the grass-field…

    I can’t help but wonder why some Demiurge threw me to endure the lifelong punishment of “existing”, with all the whistles and bells inseparable from human existence: paying taxes and subscriptions (despite any condition of unemployment), seeking and serving jobs so a rich person can become more rich, conforming to civil duties, serving the military and, in many countries, forcefully belonging to some religion, etc, etc… It’s so absurd that even Absurdist philosophers would have a hard time trying to frame existence in less absurd terms.

    I’m not denying how some moments can be “happy” or “enjoyable”, but it doesn’t make life less of a prison. It just makes me momentarily distracted from the prison while still being behind the bars of the baryonic matter.

    The only thing that really comforts me is knowing how the kiss from the Lady Scythe-Bearer is inevitable and even humans with their fancy tools are powerless against Her, but for me to need to wait for Her bittersweet lips is like a prisoner needing to wait for serving their sentence before getting to gather with their loved one.

    My point is: people like me should be allowed to choose to end our own existence without having to endure pain and the high certainty of failure from an attempt of our own (and trust me, I’ve been trying and failing because my vessel is preprogrammed with the pesky survival instincts). My point is that MAID should be also allowed to anyone who are consciously willing to choose it. But, yeah, it’s such a taboo for many people.


  • @Arkouda@lemmy.ca @Pro@programming.dev

    I’m a person who’d be labeled as “truly depressed”, as I coexist with the so-called “depression” since my childhood. I went to several mental health professionals, tried several different medications (Paroxetin, Ritalin, Escitalopram, Aripiprazole). Nothing worked.

    Here’s why: one can’t cure something without curing the root cause. One could take painkillers for a headache and the headache would temporarily cease, but the painkiller won’t cure whatever is causing the headache in the first place.

    Turns out that my “depression” stems from something that can’t be cured, the ontological realization of the lack of True Will. It’s something way beyond mundane questions such as “I’m far into adulthood and I still don’t know what kissing is” or “I’m in adulthood and I didn’t manage to achieve a career”. My fundamental complaints can’t even be put into human language without sounding absurd, because they have to do with the absurdity of existence itself.

    My “problems” can’t be treated by medications, my “problems” can’t be treated by professionals, because my “problems” exist beyond existence.

    I have a problem with having being born without my consent. I have a problem with my awareness of the pointlessness of a fleeting biological existence before the carelessness and vastness of the Cosmos. I have a problem with the fact that I must “take responsibility” legally/socially about myself even though I couldn’t even choose to be born in the first place. I have a problem with the fact that I must seek to "do/be something/someone useful for society_ so I get to “afford to eat and have a shelter” by having a colorful piece of paper, when there’s no proper way to release my body from such needs. I have a problem with how this flesh-and-bones vessel imposes the continuity of existence unto me (“instinct of survival”).

    Treatent won’t solve the root problem (lack of True Will), it’d be just gaslighting me into gaslighting myself by keeping me busy with fleeting mundaneity. As the movie says, “Don’t look up”: I must not see the ever-approaching dark lips of Death emerging from the darkness of spacetime continuum so I should take medication and walk myself to that queue over there so I can apply for countless jobs until I afford to be chosen by a landlord employer who expects me to grant them more profit.

    Even talks about one’s own choice on the continuity of existing (MAID) is met with societal rejection, for “life is a gift and we must be thankful to whatever/whoever granted us with life”. In this sense, suicide hotlines, treatment and medication aren’t so different from clergy and their religious dogmas in the time of feudalism, where peasants were convinced of their “transcendental purpose” to serve… Just history repeating itself.

    Unfortunately, no treatment will make me forget how existence is inherently servile, to which I’ll continue to shout until Lady Death gets to finally kiss me: “Non Serviam”.


  • @Davriellelouna@lemmy.world

    In another Brazilian city I personally know, Jundiaí - SP, some restaurants built some kind of “deck” (made of wood planks) on the side of the street. I tried to embed a photo from one of these (this is my first attempt on sending images to Lemmy using Calckey so I’m not sure if the image will work).

    These “decks” were permanently installed, including electrical wiring running from the establishment to the “deck” lights. I don’t even know how the city hall authorized this, considering how the region (Campinas Microregion, Jundiaí Urban Agglomeration and Greater São Paulo, all of them in growing process of conurbation) is highly car-centric (yeah, there’s a growing public infrastructure including trains and bicycle lanes, and Jundiaí, specifically, is pretty walkable, but many things still seem to revolve around vehicles around there).

    On the one hand, this theoretically frees up the sidewalk for pedestrians. On the other hand, it depends on the restaurant respecting pedestrians by keeping the sidewalk clear, and I don’t know to what extent these restaurants do this. But this concept of flatbed truck bar isn’t too far from that of these restaurants in Jundiaí.

    A screenshot from Streetview showing a wood deck built by a restaurant on the side of a Brazilian street in Jundiaí - SP.



  • @over_clox@lemmy.world

    Just an observation from someone who happened to memorize some ASCII code: from an ASCII viewpoint, 45 73 63 is hex code for “Esc”, with “s” being 73 and “c” being 63. I can readily see where bits flipped: at the fifth least-significant bit (compare 73 (0111 0011) and 63 (0110 0011).
    Similarly, “no0errors” where “0” should be a space. “0” is 30 while space is 20. Again, another specific flipping at the fifth least-significant bit, only difference that this time a 0 became 1 (compare 30 (0011 0000) and 20 (0010 0000)).

    The delimiter from the status of “Test #0” seems like a control char-code emerged from a start bracket. If the start bracket has the same char-code as expected from ASCII (5b), and considering how the flipping of the fifth least-significant bit seems to be recurrent, it’d be 4b but this would result in uppercase K, so it’s either a different char-code for bracket or a bit-flipping happening in another position.

    But what renders text is the graphics card. Given that the background is slightly shifted rightwards (notice how the blue background cuts through the initial letters from the first column of text, particularly “A” from “Athlon”, “L” from “L# cache” and so on), this seems a graphics glitch rather than a memory glitch. And memtest86+ isn’t designed to test the GPU, so it’s beyond the heuristics. It’s akin to expecting memtest86+ to test for dead pixels on a LCD panel: it simply can’t.

    (P.S.: it’s unnecessary and disrespectful to attack others just because others couldn’t see what you wanted them to see; slurs won’t help people see what you see)


  • @n816Life@lemmy.world

    For me, Friendica is and has been partially up. I even posted something on my own profile Saturday and it managed to federate to other Fediverse platforms (Mastodon and Calckey).

    For me, only specific functionalities aren’t working, such as searching for federated content (such as this thread on Lemmy, for which Friendica returns “No result”), as well as (and this seems to be the major bottleneck) the “/network” tab.

    The “/network” tab (“My friend’s conversations”) will definitely return Gateway Timeout. It’s an alias to the index page (i.e. the page loaded when friendica.world is accessed via typing friendica.world on the browser and hitting enter), which will also return Gateway Timeout.

    Being aware of this, my approach has been accessing Friendica.World through direct URLs for parts outside the “My Friend’s conversations” tab (e.g. the direct link to my own /profile, or the direct link for DMs).

    Sometimes it’ll return “Service Unavailable” or something similar (“No server is available to handle the request”), to which I simply wait a bit then try to reload until it loads.

    So, my advice is trying to:

    1. access Friendica using direct URLs (e.g. your own profile’s URL, someone else’s contact URL, or friendica.world/message) instead of accessing the main.
    2. avoid clicking/going to “My Friend’s Conversations” as it’ll certainly result in “Gateway Timeout”
    3. when faced with “Service Unavailable”, wait a few seconds and try to reload.
    4. when needing to interact with posts outside Friendica (e.g. Lemmy), prefer using other platforms (e.g. I’m using Calckey to reply to your Lemmy thread) because the fetch of federated content isn’t working properly.

    I suspect that the downtime stems from the way the “My Friend’s conversations” is requested by default whenever a Friendica.world user tries to access the instance’s website, so this may keeping the server stuck in a bottleneck trying to pull federated content.


  • @return2ozma@lemmy.world

    Greetings! Brazilian here.

    First and foremost, Brazil has many religions beyond Christianity: we have Afro-Brazilian traditions such as Candomblé, Umbanda and Quimbanda, as well as numerous Brazilian indigenous traditions, as well as communities practicing Islam, Judaism, Buddhism, Bahá’í and Kardecism, as well as smaller communities practicing Wicca, Luciferianism and many New Religious Movements (such as “New Age”).

    There are also independent, personal religions, when people (like me) chose to believe in something on their own without any kind of congregation or membership. I’m myself someone who oscillates between religiosity and non-religiosity, between Apatheism (which is not Atheism, despite how both terms look similar) and a deeply-specific mix (syncretism) between Luciferianism, Lilitheism, Gnosticism, Crowley’s Thelema and Hermeticism (to mention some of the religious frameworks from which my beliefs stemmed).

    The whole Brazilian state was founded on the grounds of Christianity, so Christianity is deeply ingrained in the way our politics do politics.

    However, despite Christianity being a tool of indoctrination since the colonization (indigenous people were compelled into Christianity), it’s not what leads to indoctrination (and I say this as someone who has a “diametrically opposed belief” to theirs because, after all, I worship their “Persona Non Grata” Lucifer alongside Lilith). Rather, it’s social compliance (as per Derren Brown’s concepts and social experiments).

    People are socially compelled by their family, friends, neighbors, coworkers, employers and others into going to a church and believing in whatever their “leader” (a Bishop, a “Pastor” or a “Father”) says. Many Christians “read” the Bible through this “leader”, because they fear that reading on their own would lead to defiance and excommunication (which would mean social ostracism for them). That’s why they blindly follow, and that’s why they’re easily manipulated, and that’s why politics gets to use their power within the churches to gain more power.

    But this isn’t something restricted to a specific political spectrum: all political spectra have their grips on Christianity, because, as I said, the entire country is built upon Christianity, so both the right-wing, the left-wing and the center-wing try to take advantage from it, because it holds the majority of Brazilian voters. If the majority of Brazilian voters were, for example, Kardecists, you could bet that politicians would try to twist The Spirits Book to their own whims. Similarly, if the majority of Brazilian voters were from Umbanda or Candomblé, politicians would allege that they’re being guided by Orixás and this is why people should vote to them. So it’s not the religion to blame (although Christianity itself is to blame by many things), it’s simply whatever politicians can use to perpetuate their power and/or trying to be powerful.


  • @ryujin470@fedia.io !nostupidquestions@lemmy.world

    I’m not autistic (AFAIK), but I’m similarly neurodivergent. To be exact, I suspect I have Geschwind syndrome, albeit undiagnosed (and given how it’s controversial among neurologists and psychiatrists, as well as how it’s not easy to detect and needs to involve expensive MRI and EEG scans, I guess I’ll simply die without ever being diagnosed).

    Having said this, I have a complicated relationship with “social media”. I constantly feel the urge to express, be it through online discussion (as I’m doing now), be it through philosophical/poetic/ritualistic writing, be it through coding, be it through drawing. It’s part of the “hypergraphia” trait from the syndrome that I suspect I have.

    Whenever I express or seek others’ expression around a current subject of interest, it’s often highly-abstract content: philosophical, religious/spiritual/esoteric/mystical/theological and scientific (hoping to find something that contains all three simultaneously). In that regard, it has to do with the “hyperreligiosity” and “philosophical rumination”.

    However, I have a complicated relationship with the concepts such as “human”, “loneliness”, “friendship”, “intimacy” and “relationship”. Sometimes I have the urge to express while also haveing the urge to stay alone. Similarly, I get frustrated by superficial interaction: notice how my texts are long (and not just this one, my comment history across Friendica and Calckey, the remnants of my online activity, proves my verbosity), and this requires mental energy, and seeing this energy being converted into shallow exchanges across social networks can definitely frustrate. See how I mentioned “remnants” on my parenthetical break? Sometimes I catch myself nuking my own things: my comments, posts, sometimes entire profiles, out of frustration and/or resignation. I used to have whole blogs with dozens of posts, hundred posts on Mastodon, a Bluesky profile with more than 200 posts: all nuked by myself out of impulsivity.

    There’s also conflict with my “current subject of interest”: similar to ADHD people, sometimes I develop an almost obsessive interest (hyperfocus) around something. Decades ago, it was programming. 5y ago, it was survivalism and Eschatology studies on the biblical Apocalypse. 2y ago, it was Luciferianism, and then Lilith until recently (months ago). It was drawing, it was writing entire ritualistic poetry and chants. 2w ago, it was intensive self-teaching Morse code and ASCII hex code and alphabetic code (A=1,B=2,…). See, I can’t rest mentally. And this always involve trying to express about it. This involves trying to participate. This involves trying to belong until I realize I don’t, until I realize I can’t, until I give up and nuke my own past efforts. So while I do post a lot in social media, it doesn’t last for long until I decide for self-destruction once again because I couldn’t get meaningful like-mindedness.


  • @cheese_greater@lemmy.world !asklemmy@lemmy.world

    In order to understand what happens with the light from our earthly shelters, one needs to look up. See those stars shining all across the night sky? Those celestial bodies aren’t where we see them, and many of them are long gone. So we don’t see the stars, we see their “ghosts”, compelled to physically wander through the spacetime continuum.

    Roughly speaking, EM radiation (and, by extension, visible light) travels indefinitely to the far reaches of cosmos once it’s emitted. It’ll definitely decay and become fainter and fainter (Inverse Square Law), eventually blending with other faint signals also scattered and wandering through the space. We call it “noise”, which is nothing but the sum of all cosmic EM activity that once happened since the dawn of time, especially (but not limited to) that of Big Bang, as “Cosmic Microwave Background”, which is still around (it’s just that our home equipment, as digital sets, are designed to ignore such noise, but people used to be able to tune into it with the early analog TV and radio receptors).

    Now, there’s a maxim from Hermeticism that says “As above, so below”: just as we see the past from cosmos whenever we look at the skies, some hypotethical extraterrestrial civilization at hundreds of thousands of light-years from here would see (supposing they exist and supposing that they got highly advanced optics) a Pale Blue Dot with some minuscule flame spots on its surface, the bonfires once lit by Homo erectus when they began tinkering with fire. Those extraterrestrials won’t see the Earth as it currently is relative to the Sun, which also won’t be where it currently is relative to Milky Way, which also won’t be where it currently is relative to Laniakea.

    Those extraterrestrials definitely won’t see our desperate signals begging for them to beam us up (from the former Arecibo transmission all the way to someone lonely blinking their home lights right now desperately trying to call the extraterrestrial attention): we’re all screaming to the void, and the void screams back as a silent noise from long-gone celestial bodies. The cosmos is a big cemetery where ghosts are hauntingly compelled to roam around without getting anywhere (still they sometimes stumble upon other ghosts, when energy is absorbed by all sorts of cosmic matter both here and out there).

    In the end, this is what happens with your home light every time you turn it off: it becomes some kind of “electromagnetic ghost” electrically “summoned” in your room and unleashed to the outer space, not to haunt, but to be haunted and devoured by the ineffable darkness of the abyss, where it will spend the eternity going everywhere to reach nowhere…